Jambi - Tool

That whole day, Jambi was stuck in my head. One hour before it happened I listened to it again. Was it foreshadowing? When I drove home, NIN's album With Teeth randomed onto my ipod. Thank you, ipod, for fisting my fresh wound.
All that happened about a month ago so this is by no means new.

Maybe its newish.

still hurts sometimes...

Why is it that I never write anything happy? I have a lot of shit to be happy about, but it seems like whenever I decide to sit down and record events or whatever, its always when I'm either raging like mad or crying my eyes out. It probably doesnt help that Undertow is a huge emotional trigger, and I allowed it to play all the way through a few days ago.


"Here from a kings mountain view
Here from the wild dream come true
Feast like a sultan, I do
On treasures and flesh never few

But I
I would
Wish it
All away
If I
Thought I
Would lose you
Just one day

The devil and his had me down
In love with the dark side I'd found
Dabblin' all the way down
Up to my neck, soon to drown.

But you changed that all for me
Lifted me up, turned me round

So I, I would wish this all away

Prayed like a martyr dusk to dawn
Begged like a hooker all night long
Tempted the devil with my song
And got what I wanted all along

But I
I would
If I could
I would
Wish it away
Wish it away
Wish it all away
Wanna wish it all away

No prize that could hold sway
Or justify my giving away my center

So if I could I'd wish it all away
If I thought tomorrow would take you away.

You, my piece of mind, my all, my center,
just trying to hold on one more day."